
Originally Posted by
OatsCurrySummer
Probably tmi but w/e: Back in Canada, I had managed to get my eating disorders (plural because I began binge eating as a result of prior starvation) under control on my own because I didn't want medication and treatment showing up on my records. I was doing great, had everything under control, lost a lot of weight, exercised regularly and could enjoy the occasional indulgence without the guilt that would have formally sent me into a spiral. But then I came to Japan, and everything changed. I no longer had access to my "safe" foods, my eating schedule became irregular due to frequent parties and enkais, I couldn't continue being vegan because of mandatory school lunches, and general loneliness led me to overeat and subsequently gain close to forty pounds. Only a month ago did I finally hit rock bottom and decided to change through frequent exercise and maintaining a vegetarian diet at home. All I'm saying is that I thought I had my shit sorted out when I came here, I truly did, but wasn't at all prepared to have all my progress undone and then some. I think everyone else on the thread is in agreement there. Your struggles and anxieties in your own country will be amplified by ten here. They don't go away just because you moved to the other side of the world. But you'll be a better person for it if you face them head on.